After all this time, It still hurts

I have sooo many regrets. And I live with them every single day. 8 years later and It still haunts me. Truth is I knew how you felt, I knew you loved me. I heard you every time you’d sneak an “I love you” in every other conversation. I saw the way you looked at me. And mannnn…it made me weak every single time. But I pushed you away so hard back then. I wasn’t ready for any of that at the time. And I fucking regret it so fucking much. Because ever since letting go of all this, I haven’t been able to unfeel the things I felt for you, and only you. It still hurts.