Feeling really ashamed about this all

Ok lol. I’ll start off by saying I feel so strange and a weird person. I’m 26 years old. I’m an adult. Those two things scare the crap out of me. I have struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life. I have something called borderline intellectual functioning which I just found out about. I feel so alone even though everyone says you’re not alone. I feel like I can’t function being an adult at all. Nothing really prepares you for it. I have thought about every adult I see now (which I never did before) and how they are able to just know what they’re doing in life even like being independent, preparing meals and all. Also I just don’t feel ready to move out at all which makes me feel weird too. So ya emotionally and financially. Also I’m just thinking as I’m typing that I don’t know why the heck I’m writing you such a long message. You probs don’t really care enough anyway. But I feel I want to. A therapist is all talking and I find it easier when I can sit back and think and type my thoughts out. So ya. Emotionally and financially not ready. I have a drivers license but not ready at all to drive and own my car. I don’t really have friends except for like two but it just doesn’t seem like enough. I want a girlfriend but I’m afraid because of my intellectual capacity that I won’t understand the dynamics and nuances of a relationship, she’ll feel like I’m this loser manchild who doesn’t drive. It’s like I want a relationship but not really marriage or kids. I can barely take care of myself but I am a nice and loving guy even though I try and take care of myself like I. But it’s scary growing up. It’s really scary. If you read through this whole thing you’re a real one and thank you!