Wife Very Suddenly Passed 11/20. 😢

Im just beaide myself and having a hard time making it day to day with the emptiness I feel after my wife just suddenly passed away a couple weeks ago after 14 years together. Im 39 she was just 34 and had turned 34 exactly 10 days prior. We have a 4 year old son together and its hard to answer that "where is mommy?"question. Don't really know why in posting this on here because in not really looking for advice ect. Just to vent i guess because I feel so alone. My son gets 110% of my attention when im not working and I have to doubt that things will work itself out. But right now I feel like I'm just kidna floating through the days not being able to make those phone calls and get talk to our son and gripe at her about how my day has been. Everything I do anymore makes me think of her and im in tears constantly. This is by far the hardest thing ive ever had to experience and truly saddens me to my core that I had to lay her to rest at such a young age. She thrived all out marriage and time together about how excited she was to be a mother one day and that day was probably the happiest day of her life. Yet she barely scratched the surface of getting to experience that. She lived her life evey day for our son and I and truly had a heart of gold. She made sure to show that to the both of us anytime we were together or talking. We would argue some but what couples after 14 years don't. What I would give for just 1 more dumb argument over what's for dinner, 1 more hug, 1 more kiss, 1 more "I love You so much Baby!" 😢