Wtf do I do.

My bf (m21) and I (f22) are expecting a baby in February. It’ll be our three year anniversary in march. Back in October 2024, I left him because he was struggling with a porn addiction and I wasn’t handling it well. We got back together just before Christmas. Fast forward to April 2025, I left him again due to his interactions with prostitutes every time we would fight. Unfortunately, I made the stupid decision to sleep with him during our breakup. Well what do you know of course two weeks later I discover I’m pregnant. I wanted to keep my baby and we discussed and I really thought it would be different and good this time. Especially since overall he is not a bad person and I know he doesn’t hate me or has malicious intentions when it comes to me or our relationship. Well, yesterday we were in the mountains ice fishing with no service. I sat in the car for a bit alone after awhile because I was cold. I had taken his phone instead of mine with me and decided to go through it, tbh not looking for anything bad just seeing if he was actually preparing for the future the way he says he’s been doing. Nope. Ofc not. Found 9 deleted conversations of him inviting prostitutes into our home in the middle of the night while he was drunk, and I was sleeping. They were less than 24 hours old. Idk what to do. He’s sleeping beside me right now as I right this and I genuinely want to smother him with a pillow. I know he won’t be a bad father. He’s just a shitty lustful person. He knows I know and he’s been apologizing all night and trying to do everything for me because I have been in devastation mode since I read those messages. I can’t sleep I’ve barely ate and I already feel like shit as it is being 31 weeks pregnant. We’re supposed to be going on a family vacation with his family to Florida for Christmas, and a baby shower, and Christmas parties, and all these things that I now have to pretend we’re so happy at. Idk what I’m looking for here. I guess I’m just venting because I can’t talk to anyone irl about this right now, as everyone already thought I was an idiot for going back to him again and again.