I feel like I’ve fallen off a cliff and can’t find my way back to Allah.😔

I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I recently lost something my entire future depended on, and it shattered me in ways I never expected. Ever since that day, it’s like my connection with Allah just… snapped. I haven’t prayed in months. I don’t feel that spark, that guilt, that pull…nothing. No will to do anything at all to improve my iman or myself in general.

I want to repent so badly, but my heart feels numb. Like I’m knocking on a door that won’t open, and al the doors have been closed for me. I feel lost, broken, stuck, confused… like I’m wandering with no map and no light.