Reached styro due to Tiktok

Unfortunately went deeper than scratches for the first time in 10 years since I've been SH'ing and its all because I decided to listen to tiktok. I never knew what reaching styro was until I saw it on tiktok and ppl sounded so proud of reaching it that it felt invalidating that I've never reached it. Its almost like I saw myself trying to compete with others and for what? Now im in so much pain and keep bleeding even tho everyone was saying how it was less painful. IT ISNT IT HURTS SO BAD. Plus it makes a mess pls if anyone feels inspired or is thinking of hitting styro pls don't do it I felt like a failure not being able to and the second I was able to it felt exhilarating and addicting but then the pain came and is stinging so badly plus its super scary to see ur skin tear open like that I dont want to encourage anyone to keep self harming but if anyone is struggling with it such as myself be careful and dont compare your method of SH with anyone else's it felt demeaning when ppl called my scars "cat scratches " and that hitting styro is better you dont gain anything from going deeper other than more pain and aftercare I really think I won't ever do this again I never even knew this was even a thing to begin with I thought SH was always cat scratches but ig ppl on tiktok think its cool to compare SH methods and encourage others to go deeper