My dogs died today

My two boys. Three years old. My hearts.

I’m in shock. I can’t believe this happened.

While I was gone today the cat pushed the door open and the dogs went out. By the time we got home they had run away. I just knew they would be back after some adventuring. Hours passed. I searched the whole time. Once more I went out looking tonight and I found one dead in the highway. He was curled up like he was sleeping. The other one never returned and I really think he is gone, too.

I don’t feel like I can survive this. No I’m not suicidal, but the pain in my heart and my soul is overwhelming. It happened so fast. I told them goodbye and be good and left not knowing it was forever.

I feel so guilty. I should’ve locked the bolt lock so the cat couldn’t push the door open. I should’ve stayed home. I should have …. But I didn’t. So because I failed to protect them, my babies are gone forever. This house is so empty. My heart is so empty.

Please pray for me. This hurts so much.