Considering The Next Steps

I have always been excited by the idea of feminization especially forced feminization /sissification and chastity and hypno, all of it. But I live a pretty normal life outside those occasional desires. I look at porn. Edge to it, masturbate, I’ve bought some girly clothes but nothing too scandalous as I am considering my gender identity and those around me don’t know of those desires. But lately I’ve had the urge to push things further, get toys, try chastity, seriously listen to hypno. My humiliation/embarrassment kink doesn’t help. I try to ignore it but the pull is getting really strong😵‍💫. Anyways I thought I’d just drop a confession. Feel free to comment or chat and I’ll respond when I’m able to!