Not sure what to do with Jesus yet

Hey folks. I’ve got some unresolved feelings around Jesus that I thought I’d share. I realize he’s the definitive focus of the Christian faith but my brain has a hard to praying to him for some reason.

The concept of God is pretty easy for me to digest. I guess I struggle to understand why an additional figure is needed at all if God is all-powerful and omniscient.

I share this struggle to believe/understand with you AND i want to also offer that I feel like I’m open to Jesus to reveal more to me. I’m open to his mystery. But it’s like it’s not coming as naturally as my belief in a creator.

I was meditating in 2020 once and felt like Jesus appeared to me. I fell into prayer at the sight of him, like my psyche automatically recognized his divinity. It was a powerful experience but I just don’t understand why there’s more than one figure? And if Jesus could come to me like that, I wonder why I can’t seem to get more clarity within myself in relation to him.

Has anyone struggled with this?