Dear my narc ex gf

I feel sorry for myself. At this point I don’t even feel angry at you, I feel angry at myself. You had shown me your true colours within 10 months, but I kept staying with you for 3.5 years till you left and replaced me. I’m such a fool to let this happen to myself. You are a cheater, a manipulator, you have 0 empathy, you only used me. For you I was just your comfort zone. You never loved me, what you had in the beginning was just affection. You were love bombing me at the beginning, cuz at that time you needed me more than i needed you. All the days I went out to buy food for you, chocolates for you, jewellery for you for you to stop quarrelling, who knew you were busy with another guy in your house. People would call us a power couple. But you never loved me, and that never stopped me from loving you. You are evil cuz you have hurt people who loved you. You will also hurt your new man, poor guy thinks you are that fallen angel who never got treated rightly. He’s also falling in the same trap as I did 3.5 years back. I lost my self respect, dignity for you, people would call me a cu*k. But nothing stopped me from loving you. But you never did. You only were looking for someone who could feed you narc supply. You kept me till you went to college becuz in school everyone knew of your character and no good guy would ever date a cheater. Now that you are in college everyone believes your fabricated story where I am the villain. After all I did for you is this what I am supposed to feel like? You are a monster, atp I just hope that the new guy is mentally strong and wise enough to not put himself in my situation.

I have healed a lot from you, but yeah I still miss the fantasy you made me fall for. It’s fine, I will have someone really soon who will love me.