I get that I irreversibly damaged you

I do I truly understand. I’m a monster. I created the people who now hate me. I am fucking trying to get better. It doesn’t happen instantly. Trust me if I could snap away all of my anger it would’ve been gone in the fucking 3rd grade. I’m not meant to walk this earth, and that’s been abundantly clear these last few years. I created new demons in you. I fucking know. I’m sorry. Trust me, don’t trust me, I genuinely give up. Sorry for disappointing everyone in my life. It won’t happen again, because it seems I’m no longer apart of theirs.