4 months

So do you think after 4 months of decently heavy use.( I dont know first two months maybe 8 ball every two weeks last 2 months up 2 to 2 8 balls a week..) that i have completelt ruined the joy and happiness in my life for the next year or 2? Im just trying to prepare myself for what maybe to come ..granted these last few months I eat well, sleep and take plenty of supplements.. I feel for the most part genuinely content right now so its just kinda hard for me to imagine that once I quit I will be pushed down a spiral of negative thoughts and emotions.. but I hear that is quite common.. im just wondering if my length of use is enough to cause that? And also Brain zaps does anyone have a fuckin remedy for these things or what? Thanks for listening