The door is closed again isn’t it?

After I thought I had finally grasped you, after I had seen the real you, seen his hurt and pain and finally feel what was missing before - an authentic piece of you. Talking to you one day later and I feel like I’ve been shut out again. Theres no freezing coldness like you after you feel you’ve shown too much. You are back at stage one - you flying higher than anyone else, you polishing your ego, you mistrusting me. Seriously? Still mistrusting me??? You being territorial, you negating that what you showed me before was real; you negating that you need help and that you very much need to change.

Please my sweet darling, please for the sake of your own good at least - try to change. Don’t forget the lessons that were taught to you so harshly. I cannot keep repeating them to you, I know its hard but you will have to feel your way through. You have been hurting me so much in the past with your egocentric and impulsive ways, I don’t judge you anymore. But I don’t think you understand that in the future, there’ll be ONE chance left. Because then, I will have to be the next one to leave. I know, always the ones closest to you. It’s not because you are unloved or because you are not worthy. But you make me feel unloved. You make me feel like I am wrong. Please I know you can be different. I know how bad you can hurt. Stay honest, stay free, I do not want to lose you. <3