We had a big blowup about it a year ago and he quit..But he actually quit

So i've posted on here under numerous accounts about how even though I despised him for consuming porn I have always consumed porn (except for when i found out he did too) and I quit for a very long time, until I didnt feel the need to anymore, eventually the wound was gone and I wanted to try watching together, our sex life has improved so much since he's stopped watching but when we tried this he was having trouble trying to keep it up, I even tried to let him pick but he didn't want to, I tried to show it was a safe space but it eventually turned into him holding the phone facing me during missionary for me to watch only. afterwards he told me it was because he had such negative thoughts and emotions attached to porn now which is my fault and I kinda felt bad that I ruined something that should have been fun for us. I know I don't share the same sentiment as many women here, and I pray all of you find what you need, I just wasn't sure where else to post this experience.