NSFW I am a porn and sex addict and the shame is killing my life

(M22) I regularly jerk off, except I am addicted to doing it online on Snapchat with strangers, with little to no regard for my privacy. I keep teasing men on Grindr about sex and then calling it all off for my own fears, proceeding to instead sext or cam as an alternative. I've jerked off for hours sometimes in days and I felt like I've "corrupted" everything with my sperm, like everything is dirty and I'm constantly and unknowingly sexually harassing someone just with my dirty presence. I have a lot of anxiety and depression, nothing gets me higher than sex and masturbation. I am so ashamed of writing this post, but there's no one I can talk to about it, not even my therapist (that I abandoned because it wasn't working and I can't find another one). What do I do? I feel that my only selling point is my body, because nobody talks to me except for wanting to screw me.