could this be breast cancer, early sign? or am i going crazy?

Hey all,

i’ve been on HRT for 9 months now, these past months have been ups and downs but i’m happy and grateful to be on HRT and to finally feel aligned within my true self as i should.

I’ve been on 1.5mg of estradiol and the last time i got my levels checked were at 6 months, my trough level was 180pmol of E, so yes im aware that’s low so i wanted to immediately get a 0.5 increase.

my clinic didn’t increase my levels, instead they asked me to test within 2 months what my levels would be at my peak.

I didn’t listen to them, and stupidly went up to 2mg, i could basically say i caused this to myself. But i was curious as to what id feel and how id feel on 2mg.

I did this for around a month or a little bit more unsupervised and without any blood tests, but i felt better, more euphoric, and more but subtle changes started occurring.

i recently did my blood test in december (forgot when) in order to send over to my clinic, but i was shocked to see that my levels 3-4 hours after my dose in the morning was 3040PMOL!!!! I started panicking as this was excuriatingly high for my peak, and i was convinced that my body had it been on this amount of E for long would cause serious health hazards.

I don’t know what to do, i want to go back to 1.5mg but im not sure if i miss a few days of my dose, or just go back to just applying 1mg am and 0.5mg pm like how i used to do. But i feel like the sudden drop of my levels would make me feel like absolute SHIT.

I’m scared, because my breasts last night started to feel uncomfortable. Basically, i was shaving with my electric razor around my breasts as i normally do, and i’m not sure if i nicked my nipple by accident (i recall going over it but not feeling a sharp pain) but it started to bleed, not like gushing out, but a little bit of blood came from the nipple.

I’m an over-thinker and also a hypochondriac, my first instinct was to research (stupid of me) about what it was, to be told it could be an early sign of breast cancer 🥲

i want to get a breast examination with my gp (feel like this is the best idea) as im convinced my levels being high may be contributing towards this. My breasts don’t look different, no lumps that i have felt at all (except my breast bud) or changing of skin texture and what not.

Can someone reassure me please? Do i miss some days of my dose to hopefully lower my E, or do i just start with 1mg and work my way back to 0.5, im not sure how long this would take though.. 🫠