Insane trust issues

I don't trust anyone anymore. I have a friendgroup if i can even call it that anymore where i am too afraid to even soeak uo in VC cuz i might get insulted by one person that doesn't like me and i think all of them might do that behind my back. I am afraid to lose them but also i don't think staying there is good for my mental health. I am fucking afraid of loneliness but i don't even trust the people i hang out with. Im fucking miserable