When the Heart Wanders: My Secret Relationship

I have an improper/illicit relationship with someone in my office. The reason I am sharing this here is to know if anyone else has gone through such experiences in their life. I am 44 years old, and he is the one who intensely fell in love with me. I never imagined I would ever have a relationship with anyone else. My world was always my husband and children.

He too is married and living a happy life. I feel like I am truly alive only when he finds time for me. Sometimes I feel like ending this relationship; I feel guilty and all that… but then some kind of force pulls me back into it again. Both of us have so much to lose, yet we continue this secretly.

It’s not because my husband doesn’t love me that I love this other person. There is something else in it, something I can’t explain. Are there others who have relationships like this? What is the reason people continue in such relationships?