I wonder how many buyers have the same revelation as me, and what does it feel like to them to realize it? 

  
Some men come to sellers because it's difficult to find a sexual partner in real life, but the thing is that even when you buy you still need to find a compatible seller. 😄 

  
I bet many sellers come into this and think or at least hope it will be easy, but then you slowly discover that it's not enough to be a woman and get naked. XD

  
There are buyers who love me and come back, and there have been others who were underwhelmed. 

  
The best sellers (of live content) are those who are either really good actresses or who are really truly super horny sluts (I envy them haha, but I think they are rare). I am neither of those. XD 

  
My moods are swingy AF, so I can only be myself. :P Which means that in the end, the men I end up working with long term are men I'd click with IRL too. I'm not for everyone and not everyone is for me, even in sex work. :) And I'm not talking about physical preferences, but about personality. I think that would be unexpected for the people who are completely outside of this environment. 

  
The pic from this post is from the first time I took pics specifically for this. :) So much happened since then. Funny thing to be nostalgic about. :P Maybe because it's my bday in 2 days, I'll be 39, getting close to a big milestone, and nothing is the way I ever thought it would be at 40. XD 

  
There is a whole world around us that we can't even notice. Other people have realities that we can't even comprehend. I often wonder what it's like in other people's life bubbles. :) 

Thoughts after a year of doing this