Need Advice 28 M. Started self improvement in 2023

2023 : Started with gym consistency , learned about overthinking, emotions , mood, urges, habits.

Started focusing on good habits but their was so much anxiety, depression, overthinking in me. I used to forget things. Quite porn but replace again after some months and it was strong relapse . And I used to feel like I am again got addicted. Have a gf but i made it accidentally not like by myself.but with help of my friend. He started our chats. Since I was so fucked up I just don't understand what to speak.

My biggest problem is to reduce overthinking and consistence for improving my social skills . I have good iq since I am good at studies and learning new concepts.

My ofc girl still mock me like I am just doing silly things.

Now in 2025 I relapsed lot of time. But I am consistence with meditation, going ofc daily, but in ofc I don't work upto my potential.

Rn in decide 2025. I am trying to improve my ai learning , fitness, reduce overthinking, improve socially. But i am not getting enough time for all those things. And i used internet a lot and i keep wat hing videos of selfimprovrment, talking with girls related content everyday and i feel i have learned something today. But whenever time comes in ofc . Things don't go that way. And now from some month i ask chatgpt every minor thought i have since i don't understand by myself what to do with things thought.