recently diagnosed, pls help

for me something that has affected my life is how i rely on a lot of medicine - i have sleep medicine (even then i still wake up during the night and have to eat a melatonin gummy, not complaining too much since they taste SO good), i have antidepressants that i have to take twice every morning and nobody can talk to me before i take my medicine, medikinet so my brain doesnt go all foggy (this RUINS me since i don’t eat during the day anymore because of the medicine, and once it wears off i am like a skeleton of myself, my brain turns to mush)

i HAVE thought about going a day without my meds just to see what happens and i woke up, started sobbing about my mum screaming at me (she literally wasn’t and was probably just stressed because my sister threw up the night before and because she just came home from the airport), sobbing even more because maths is hard (the main reason i even came on reddit is to talk about how much i hate maths and how i can like it more in some kind of maths server) and then my music teacher DITCHED ME

overthinking also plays a huge part in affecting my daily life since i also have anxiety, and one of the things i am most anxious about is GETTING SICK!!! yesterday i asked my mum if i had a rabies vaccine (i did not.) because a cat in my garden scratched me (she did not have rabies either), and a few weeks ago i connected feeling sick (which is an anxiety response) to a stomach tumour! i also struggle with over sharing and trying not to give out too much info about myself… i’m sure you could have figured that out from my huge paragraphs LOL

ANOTHER THING!!! with the brain fog, i start feeling like nothing is real and i’m not real and nothing is cool and everything is a dream, it’s not very funny ☹️ especially when i couldnt sleep the whole night before a school trip so i went with NO SLEEP at all and i ges pigeons and then i felt too sick to finish my boba tea since it was so sweet

also, impulsive thoughts yhat i have done and then i have cried, very sadly. what do i do?? need help but slightly ☹️ i have a fat bald spot at the side of my head since there’s a pimple yhere and i got mad at the hair pulling off on the pimple patch. bad idea. not recommended.

on dulofor, medikinet & senaxa