Do I have anger issues?

Hey guys, I (17f) get told often from my friends that I have anger issues. They always joke about how if I drive them somewhere, I’d get road rage, and I used to feel pretty sure they were joking, but now i feel bad that they might genuinely look at me this way. My mom and i are very close, but she always says she’s scared to talk to me in fear of me getting mad.

I do understand sometimes I get angry from small things, but I never yell at or do anything bad to my friends. Sometimes I rather go nonverbal and overthink.

Idk what it is, obviously compounded by Junior year, but I’ve recently started to just really not like my friends anymore. We used to be super close, but now it feels as though if I don’t start a conversation, no one will. Our group chat is dead, and everyone else but me has other close friend groups they seem to put first, or some of the introverts in my group just don’t really gaf. I’ve felt for almost two years that they just don’t care for me the way I cared for them. (And this thinking might be the source of some misplaced anger, but i often get pretty depressed thinking about them, makes me feel alone)

Whenever I get mad at them it’s sort of a sadness anger but I’m not sure. I think the whole “op has anger issues” thing originated from when I was upset at Disney (ik right) on my Birthday (double it) over some portable chargers because i could not understand why this friend felt the need to hide it from me (her reason was that so we don’t use it all early on) when 1. i wouldn’t have his it from her and 2. she could’ve just told me her reasoning. it just felt like she didn’t trust me dispite all the effort i put into the friendship. kinda sent me down a “what am i even doing here” thought and i just didnt talk to them for the rest of the time. totally was spirallihg.

i just don’t want them to think i have anger issues. i’ve been trying to not get mad and to rationalize why my friends would do something. i don’t even know what the official definition of anger issues is. i also don’t wnat every emotion i have or opinion to be automatically invalidated by everyone as anger issues, or transferring my anger from somewhere else. I like to think i’m pretty self aware and know when i’m in the wrong, so it’s even more frustrating when someone plays my emotions off because i’m upset

so idk, thanks for reading my rant and if have some advice, thatd be cool