Just disappointed that my outcomes did not pay off as much effort i put into them.

I am glad that i am out of depression. But right now i am just sad that, even though, i put so much effort into my performance i just couldn’t' keep up with my expectations. I tried this tried that, but most importantly i still did poorly in managing my adhd. I did't needed support from my family, and where i come from mental health is seen as a joke. I should be proud i made it this far, but i think the energy i put into the system should be giving more outcomes. At this point it just became a fight with your self to performan better. Man adhd sucks like really bad. I wish i never had it. It's a terrible fate. I spent of the day trying to strategize about it. It amounted to nothing. What i am struggling is at my thought process. I can't make a head way through my situation. But to all of you who are trying i hope you find your resolution.