How can I stop a porn addiction

I was introduced to porn at a young age (around 4-6) by my farther and I first masturbated at 9 and I have been doing so since. Ever since it was introduced to me, me and my brother have always seen it as somewhat normal; like people see talking about football to someone but I know it’s not normal, it’s weird and gross and I just want to change and be better, a better person, a better son, I want to have the courage to do things, I want to not look at people the way I do and I know this is the first step to doing all those things, stopping this addiction if that’s what you can even call it. I want to stop being this weird person. I know it’s weird and gross and I can’t stop, I’m trying my best to stop and I’m even getting back into my old habits like track and stuff like that but yet I keep finding myself putting that VPN on and opening Reddit. I don’t know how to stop or ask someone for help because I don’t want someone to know about it, I don’t want someone to alter the way they look at me for the worse like I’m some kind of weirdo for doing this even if I am.

This is the weird part that I’ve never said out loud or even wrote down and I have no idea if this is truly weird to the point where someone will read this and label me as a freak. Since I remember I’ve always looked at people weirdly, be that a stranger walking their dog, my teacher, my friends or even my own family members. When I say weird I mean I imagine them in these weird scenarios or even just naked, I can’t stop it and I don’t do it to “get off” it’s subconscious and I don’t know why or when this started, I just remember its always been like this.

I’ve researched ways on how to stop, how others stopped (by research I mean about an hour of looking at others posts) and I’ve tried them but none have worked, it seems normal to me like I feel like everyone else does it but yet I still see if as gross. I want to change and I have no idea how to go about doing it so this is my final way of calling out about this. I didn’t know where to post this so I’m asking for advice , for help.