29[M4A] Feeling lonely. Like I’m making a mistake being here

There are a number of reasons I shouldn’t be on here. I told myself I wouldn’t come on here again. My girl wouldn’t approve. I end up taking things too far. Even then I’m here now. My urges winning over my rational thinking. Especially after a few drinks.

I’d ask you to help talk me out of it but I’m worried it’s too late for that now. Even if I regret it, what happens happens