You can shove Facebook up your a$$

Maybe you did it just to fuck with me. Unblocked me on Facebook to show you had more friends than you used to since you did everything in your power to convince me FB was ONLY for family. Being with you for almost 9 years doesn’t count.

But, then you had me curious…and maybe that was the point. So, I did what I do…I investigated… with all the lies and secrets and betrayal over the past almost 9 years I’ve had to do that quite often to even get a colonel of the truth…

And then I see that you’ve added a coworker. It makes sense. I know you talk to him a lot, but then it got my wheels turning… I wonder if you added her. The one that I had issues from the very beginning. The one that messaged you on Facebook when I was blocked on Facebook because she was joining your division.

And sure enough… She’s your fucking Facebook friend.

So I’m guessing either I did have a reason to worry about her from the very beginning or you added her just on the off chance that I would do exactly what I did. Why else would you have unblocked me on Facebook? I’m an open book. You could text me or call me or email me and I’ll tell you what I’m up to because I’m not the one that fucked up. I’m the one that wanted to make things work. But you wanted to have an emotional affair with your ex-wife. You thought that daily texts that had nothing to do with your kids every single day about personal and intimate details on your life was OK to have with your ex ex-wife?

And then, when I told you under no circumstances was that appropriate and that type of communication must be shut down… The same fight we’ve been having for nine years… You refused. Got pissy. And refused to speak to me.

And then you’ve sent out random emails to me instead of just being an adult and picking up the phone or sending me a text until it got to the point where you started accusing me of harassing you and I had no idea what the fuck you were talking about and you still wouldn’t answer me so I ended up having to go to the fucking police to tell them that you were threatening to call them on me for doing “something“ which you wouldn’t even share with me…

I had to apologize to them for bringing something so juvenile to their attention, but I know your ex-wife is crazy and she loves to threaten going to the police for made up things in her head that I’ve done… and then convinced you that I’ve also done them.

Has it ever occurred to you that she is a professional victim and if the attention isn’t on her, she needs to find a way to put it on her so her white night of an ex-husband will come running to her Aid…

It finally clicked for me. She’s been concocting all these stories all these years every time you and I have a fight about her and she’s been contacted by me… Then she goes and makes it seem like I’m a crazy and doing random stuff… And of course it’s gonna look like I’m doing it. But I just realized I’d bet anything it’s either her alone or her with friends doing it to get a rise out of you and make me look like I’m the crazy one.

And then… You feed into it cause then you do shit and when I get upset about it instead of trying to correct your behaviors which boarder on emotional abuse you tell me that I’m the problem because I got pissed off at your actions. And then you do something like this, where you purposely unblock me on Facebook, knowing that I have the curiosity of a cat and unfortunately, it often kills me.

And you add J as a friend. I mean, it could’ve been worse. It could’ve been your ex-wife…

I am so mad. I’m mad at you. I’m hurt. And I’m mad at myself for still being able to be hurt by you.

Because all I have wanted for these past three months is to sit down like adults and come up with a way to save our relationship. But you can’t do that. Because that means that you’d have to admit that I was right for nine years about your ex-wife. And that means that you would have to actually make changes to stop the codependency with her like I’ve said this entire time.

If you ever grow the fuck up, text me or call me. I know I said I was going to block you but I can’t. Because unlike you, I can’t turn off about caring about someone. And you may have abandoned me, but that’s your choice. You leave a good person behind. I won’t.