Anxiety after deaths of family members

Salams, I posted this before but only got one response so posting it again. Jazakallah Khayr

Assalamu-Alaykum. Hope you are all well. I just wanted some advice regarding anxiety about death of family member. Unfortunately over the last 4 years I’ve lost my dad and 2 of my grandparents. This has given me incredible anxiety specifically around losing more of my family and in particular my younger siblings. Unfortunately I’ve started getting quite bad anxiety recently as I’ve been picking up patterns. For instance the year before my dad passed away my dad and siblings favourite football team won the league and it was a very good memory . This year is the first time our favourite club won the league since then. This year my siblings favourite driver won the f1 championship. This is granting me anxiety as I’m wondering whether Allah is giving us happy memories before taking one of us away. The January-February time is a difficult time for me always as it is time where all 3 of my dad and grandparents passed. We also have booked a holiday in January , so again I’m thinking Allah is giving us a happy memory. I know this is the wrong way to think but I can’t help but notice parallels and patterns. I’m not sure if this is islamically correct but it’s giving me crazy anxiety. I was just wondering if anyone had any advice. Jazakallah Khayr