31 weeks pregnant and alone with my two kids..

My husband is in the army, getting ready for deployment so he has been in training very frequently for weeks at a time.

He deploys right after the baby will be born. In fact, there is a chance he won’t be here when the baby is born because he flies to another state for more training very soon before my due date.

I’m very depressed and anxious. And tired. I want to cry all day but I can’t bring myself to cry in front of my other two kids. I have to be strong and take care of them and the house.

But I feel like such a weak person.

I don’t know if I can survive this, but I have no choice. I have to survive. For my kids and for this baby.

But I just want to hide right now. I’m really really tired and this pregnancy has been so hard emotionally…I often feel like I’m in a pit.

I don’t know why I’m sending this out into the internet…I just wanted to get it out of me…