What should I do!- binge

Hey guys.

I’d appreciate your help.

My package with my RC’s arrived and I started testing a RC stim I ordered 11 hours ago ( some Ritalin derivate I think 3 FPO) and started slow with under 5 mg. I kept redosing every hour and stopped 6 hours before midnight (European time).

Unfortunately I received some concerning news which were quite tough to cope with. At this point I started redosing again with bigger dosages around 7 pm to distract myself ( I know that’s probably the worst thing you could do). I planned to stop at 10 pm to get at least some sleep. As you can imagine I made another stupid decision and took my last dose at 2 am. I am usually not a Stim or upper user -my doc are opioids and benzos which I never redosed or took late on a weekday

Now I am laying in my bed and can’t fall asleep which is even sober hard for me. I probably won’t fall asleep without substances. The problem is that I have to attend an Important event ( lasts over 8 hours and start’s early) which I am obligated to and probably can’t get out of. To get to the question : Should I take some leftover RC benzos to help me sleep for like 2 hours or should I pull an all nighter and keep me awake during the day with the stim leftovers.

The Problem is that I have to take benzos either way tomorrow. I suffer from extreme anxiety and some other stuff , going outside especially in a social gathering without Benzos is impossible for me or you could say that I am unfortunately addicted/ dependent to Benzos and can’t function socially without them.

My fear is that I‘ll miss my alarm which only happens when I take benzos to sleep and that I‘ll waste them for sleep instead of using them for social situations.But on the other side I don’t know how benzos and stims would mix and if the stim would reduce the anxiolytic effect of the benzo with the addition of no sleep.

TLDR: Should I stay awake and keep using the stim or sleep 2 hoours