Is this what I was made for

Im now a 34m. I would consider myself straight, or I would like to think that. Being used to pleasure someone when I was innocent unlocked things I thought were wrong. The extreme pleasure of being used and giving others pleasure. Knowing all of my energy is going toward them and when they reach a climax, that I was a part of that. I didn't know that I wasnt alone. I didn't know there were more of us. I used to feel broken and hurt, but now I realize it's a gift. It's a connection. It's my purpose. Never forced always guided to where my true desires were meant to be from the start.

I was young, never had a thought of anything sexual, oblivious to that side of life. He told me he wanted to show me something. I remember seeing my 1st breast online. One singular image we waited to load on screen. I don't know where it came from, had to be from with in. A spark, a sensation, a tingling light that began in a part of my body I have never experienced before. In heart rate increased I had no idea what was happening. He kept everything calm, I think this was just another day at the office for him. Although it seemed he was also a bit inexperienced and maybe only just learned himself. I was nervous, or really maybe more excited. I wasn't scared. Should I be? No l, nothing feels wrong. He pulled out his dick.... Why is he showing me his..... He grabbed my hand and placed it on his shaft. Everything froze.... It's like the 1st time getting high. The jolt of excitement overcame any nervousness. I am all in!

He began to explain to me how things work and why I felt what I did as he was thrusting in my hand. That it feels good and he wants me to know how good it can feel too. He explained it's just helping out a friend. You want to feel good l, I want to feel good. Why not feel good together? Made perfect sense to me. Plus with what I was feeling at that moment there was no forming of my own thoughts or choices. I was now there for what ever else was going to use me for. He didn't just take from me by using me... He showed me how to suck it. I still occasionally crave to feel a throbbing cock pulsing in my hand or in-between my lips... 😵‍💫

He gave me something, something I don't think I would want to be without. That feeling that I don't know what to even call it. A feeling that feels wrong but right, and it always feels dirty. Could I do what he did and show someone else the way? No, but will I change what happened to me? No, I wouldn't. I didn't need to be saved , he saved me.

Writing this made me realize a part of me wishes to see him again and show him what all I have learned... Maybe, life has a way of connecting the dots. Anyway, I drifted off.

I can now share this experience and these sensation with others. Man or Woman, it's not being attracted to your body shape or size. I'm meant to be used for your pleasure. It's about know how good it feels and that we are feeling it together. We are just friends helping each other out. Fast-forward to our current Gooning trend.... Makes me feel like one of the people who walked so others my run 😌😄