Brother is queasy :(

Just venting. Title says it all, brother is queasy and i can feel the anxiety raising. He seems mostly fine, no fever or illness. Even plans on going out, of course this means nothing. Pointless to speculate...but I cant stop the obsessive thoughts. Its very frustrating. I tell myself "its pointless to speculate, I cant know why hes feeling this way" but my brain then immediately starts its thought loops of "What if its this, or that, but he seemed fine, but what if" then ill cycle into reassurance seeking and its DRIVING ME CRAZY. and I know the anxiety is only going to get worse. Theres a million and one reasons someone might be queasy and i need my brain to SHUT UP. Im not going to die, so why does my adrenal system act like im currently being stalked by lions?!

Honestly something not talked about a lot is just how EXHUASTING it is living with this phobia. Im so tired, im so tired of this. Im exhuasted with myself. Im tired