I will never forgive god, if there is one for doing this to me

That mf gave me this disease that will kill me and made me born in a country where treatment is insanely expensive and if I try to obtain it any other way, I'll get thrown in jail. I'm forced to watch as other people live the life that I deserved to have from the start. I was just born dead. I'll never have the body or life that I deserved to have, I'll be forced to be seen as a girl forever, the closest I'll get to what I should've had is some "in-between".