I dont know what to do anymore.

After 2 years on HRT I hadn't gained any weight in my legs. None whatsoever. I had hardly gained weight at all. So I went on prog, 100 mg at first. I heard it would help. My arms got fatter, my belly got fatter, my legs didn't at all. So I went on more prog. Still nothing. I quit caffiene, nothing. I had ffs in september, I lost weight after that, but somehow only in the legs despite having next to no fat there. I heard pio helps with this, so I went on pio. My butt got rounder, my legs started to maybe look a little bit better, but my arms absolutely ballooned outwards. So I stopped prog, kept the pio. Lost that little bit of leg weight immediately, like literally within days it was gone. Butt still rounder though, but that's it. Arms though? Huge, Massive. I look more masculine now than I did even when I first started HRT I'm pretty sure. I've been working out more, started taking hiit classes, I heard working out my thighs would make them thicker. Nope, thinner now even. Arms still fat. Arms still so fucking fat. 3.5 years HRT now. Is it just over? Am I stuck like this? Am I just unlucky? I don't know what to do. I've been having a full-on breakdown over this. My adrenaline is through the roof, I'm on the floor crying. I'll calm down but if I see myself in the mirror it sends me into full blown crisis mode. I really don't know what to do. It feels like it's my fault somehow. I don't know. It all feels like a big joke, like I'm being punished for even thinking I could be a woman. Other trans girls are real women, I'm not, I'm just a fucking weird guy and I'll be one forever. Everything I do to change it only makes it worse. I just keep making it worse. I don't get it. I don't understand.