I hate that people wants to get close to me

I know I will end up killing myself soon enough, so why are people so... "Magnetized" to me I guess?

I get along with those people, they want me to participate in what they do and I'd love to, but I can't.

I'm not a good person, I shouldn't be making new friends, I shouldn't be letting people bond with me.

Why am I like this....?