I have to let you go

In the short time we had it was something I will never forget and I love you more than you could ever know!

When we started out for me you were nothing but some fun. That didn’t last long and I found myself falling for you hard and fast! You were everything I should have run from instead it drew me in! Probably because although very similar we were also so different in many ways, being with you was like watching a movie that I was a part of! It was exciting and exhilarating, fun and hot! It was also hurtful and horrible and horrific at times! You can’t go from “if I had the help I would 100% take it” to “you’re trying to change me!” After me telling you I would be there to help you in any and all ways I could!

However I know you aren’t solely to blame and I too made more than my fair share of blame! How could someone be so cold to someone willing to wait by a hospital bed for a ridiculous amount of hours to leave before I even woke up! You are definitely 1 of a kind and I will never forget you!

We said horrible, disgusting words 1 another and they were said with the intention of inflicting and causing pain each other! I always tried to admit my faults and try so damn hard ro stop making them! I don’t want to have hatred towards you and I don’t! If anything I still would salvage a friendship with you but for me you are not so willing to forgive and that is why this is an unsent text because you have me blocked so it’s pointless anyway!

For me you are not blocked and if you ever do reach out I probably would help you! What hurts is knowing that the same doesn’t apply for me!

I hope you are at least well and eating!

I hope that you find your peace in this world and not only afterward.

I hope you see this and know how deep and meaningful this is and from my heart is where it comes.

I hope you know there is absolutely I malice in this and if anything it is full of love.

I hope that should you see this by some miracle you know it’s for you (it’s full of hints only you should understand)

But above all I hope you are happy

T+G