Unusual Frustration, looking for help

So this might end up sounding kinda like a mental health question cause my mental health is in the shitter rn sorry. (Seasonal depression winter sucks) something of a rant incoming.

But usually I’m pretty good at not getting frustrated with losing, and I pride myself on this (except being matched against may or Elphelt because god they are annoying to fight). But lately I’ve been insanely frustrated and having a massive losing streak. I play Ky and I’m at the bottom of Gold, I briefly was at Gold 2 but mostly I’ve been stuck at getting kicked down to the bottom again. And I think it’s cause I’m lost at what I’m doing wrong? Like I usually REFUSE to blame the equipment cause not taking accountability for when you fail is who you never improve, but I genuinely feel like my controller just isn’t registering shit AT ALL. Like I get stuck in combos and there will be a moment where I swear I SHOULD be able to break it but it does not do anything! Maybe I’m just missing the window it’s possible but so often it just feels like it’s not letting me do anything! And like I’m not the greatest player I’m prob below average overall but the feeling it not being my own skill failing me but feeling like something unfair is happening is what’s boiling me! And I can’t take it! This has not happened before it’s only been like the last week. Usually my loses feel fair cause I think rank is pretty good at matching skill level and it just… feels fair when I lose. But unless there is some fundamental game mechanic I just flat out missing understanding (could be GGST is my first fighting game I’ve actually played) I seriously feel like something’s wrong and I have NO IDEA how to fix it at this point!!!!!

Sorry if this is ramble-ly I’m just so pissed!! And I never usually get pissed at competitive games but this feels so fucking unfair I’m actually losing it and this is the last fucking straw in my mental health rn ngl.