Misdiagnosis? nah

the last couple of months i SWEAR i thought this diagnosis did NOT apply to me lol. i have been living in denial and now i’m just realizing it was only a high. for context, i’m in the military and i was in between commands so i had a lot of free time with training and 30 days of leave. i checked into my command and i was still doing well. i’ve been off my medication and everything. i am now in a leadership position and i feel the discomfort of calling shots. especially with the people not wanting to do their jobs, i then have to push for task to get done. today, i feel it all. my chest hurts so much and i cannot get this anxiety to stop. my “friend” at work started acting different towards me and mannnn i wish i didn’t care but it bothers me so much. my superiors like the qualities that i have, which i am grateful for. however, it’s the people that work for me that also makes it so difficult.

I’ve been in denial since June and i am now in tears realizing that i the psychologist was right. i wish i didn’t care what people thought of me.

if your chest ever feels like an elephant was on it, what do you do to relieve the discomfort? i’ve taken my “quick acting” anxiety meds but it’s still there.