a soft goodbye to a love that never became

i thought i was okay. akala ko okay na ko kasi nadadaan ko na sa biro yung nangyari eh pero masakit pa rin pala talaga. while walking kanina i was praying to God asking na sana kapag we are both winning in life na, pagtagpuin niya ulit tayo. what we had was short pero it was so special for me. i badly wanted it to be you. sobrang gusto kita ilaban pero how? we’re not even official when we ended things. baka ito yung sign na binigay ni God sakin to fully move on? baka kaya niya pinakita na you are doing very well kasi gusto na niya ko maging fully healed? i’ll take this as a sign. by 2026, i will no longer think about what could happen if nilaban ko that night. i will no longer wish na sana pagtagpuin pa tayo. i will let things be. let go and let God, sabi nga nila. i will still believe that it will get better because it always does. it might take me months pero i know i will be okay.

2025 would have been the best year if you did not happen. pero i don’t want to regret things because during our time together i was happy. genuinely happy. i want to thank you for letting me feel things for the first time, for being the first to hold my hand and waist while walking, for kissing my forehead when it’s time to go home, and for being the first one na naglakas ng loob to officially court me. i truly hope you win in life because i know how hard you are working. really wishing you the best. good bye.