Opinions are like, well, you know…

Another whiny post from your pal Sarsparilla.

Didn’t drink last night, and actually got some pretty good sleep. Hooray for not-so-small victories.

This is so minor, but so weighing on me. I asked a question on a topic in the news that I was confused about. One very helpful person responded, ‘haven’t you been paying attention?’

Boom. Instant guilt and shame for not being smart enough. For not being perfect.

I wanted to lash out:

‘Well, no, I haven’t been paying attention.

You see, in the last year:

• I ended an abusive relationship and therapy became my top priority.

• My dear friend died suddenly and unexpectedly.

• My job laid a bunch of people off so I’m doing the job of two people

• I learned that (good) therapy actually really sucks because you have to dig up the dirt and tend to the soil before you actually can grow.

• Oh, and I’ve been trying so hard to stay sober throughout it.

So, no, friend who is very concerned about my news watching abilities, I haven’t been paying attention. I’ve just been trying to survive.

Thanks for reading my rant.