Another outbreak, fun never stops....

Just had the worst outbreak of my life in October, I was an idiot and waited too long to get treated out of shame. It went away, then dealt with depression from the meds.

Got sick, on steroids and a lovely outbreak appeared again. I want to scream, cry and I am just so aggravated with this virus. I don't want to wake up nervous and obsessively check myself now, but who knows. Its tiring, honestly its not even the physical pain thats bothering me, its the emotional pain, the feeling that your life is ruined, fear of how bad the outbreak will be. Will the meds make me depressed? will I have bad anxiety again? Will I have to deal with another month of agony? But the good thing is, I have meds this time and the outbreak isn't really big or spread out. But man waking up to a new out break has to be one of the most heartbreaking and depressing things, the idea and realization that "it's back" one day at a time