Relapsed to the ER

26M Lost my job last week. I was four months in and got fired for lying on my job application, but to be fair i lied because i was fired for going to work drunk at my previous job. Four months sober, but once i was let go last week i started killing bottles again. 5 days in i get this horrible feeling in my organs, ibuprofen didnt fix shit. Hit the ER, told me my pancreas and liver were inflammed and now im writing this from a hospital stay. Feeling hopeless now but ive done it before and ill do it again. already applied to like 10 jobs with a polished resume from the hospital. weve fucking got this guys. This stuff is a poison that ill never touch again