My wife had a postpartum episode the day before our family trip before babies 1st bday

My Wife had a postpartum episode the day before our family trip for babies 1st bday…

I’m at work counting the minutes til I’m free for our months-long planned vacation to celebrate our babies 1 year. I’ve been excitedly counting for weeks. We all have.

Then, she has an episode this evening, has an argument with our daughter, shuts off, and decides she’s not coming on our planned vacation.

Wtf am I supposed to do with this? I’m scrambling trying to figure out what we need, baby needs, and trying to get through to her, but she’s completely shut off. All the down payments, hotels, and reservations…do I just cancel everything?

I don’t want to waste this trip….i don’t want to let our daughter down. I don’t want to let baby down for his first year. Sure, He won’t remember nor care, but I will, his sister will, we all will remember….additionally, I don’t want to waste enjoying my fcking vacation….

We’re going. Ive concluded it’s the less of 2 crappy outcomes…

I’ve tried to reason, gentle encouragement…pleaded for our kids sake…..she didn’t even pack things for herself. I get it…postpartum sucks…but damn. I work hard too. I’m tired too. I want me time too, but NOW is not the time to snap….push it aside and make memories with your family….feelings could fcking wait til after the trip, is my thoughts…we can deal with all this AFTER baby’s 1st bday. How does one have the heart, or lack thereof, to dump everything we planned for months because u had a bad fcking day? We all have bad fcking days….

Am I a dick for going anyway?