Ways weed has made my life worse

Hey yall 24F here hehe. I consumed weed for three years. I have tried to quit multiple times but this was my final time.

Made a month clean today!!! Gonna get my ears pierced in celebration hehe.

These are some of the ways that weed has absolutely ruined my life. Major TRIGGER WARNINGS AHEAD. SA AND PHYSICAL ABUSE.

1. The most important one. I was putting myself in extremely dangerous (sexual / social) situations. I was ignoring all of the warning signs / red flags and would end up doing something I didn’t want to do but the weed persuaded me to do so. Whether it was for fun or saying yes because I knew my life would be in danger if I said no.

2. I lost sight of my goals. I got a full ride scholarship and ended up not completing it. Granted I was in school when COVID was at its peak. But i decided to not go back. I was just high and wanted to “party”. I’m enrolled in dental hygiene school as we speak :)

3. Isolation. I lost hella friends. Basically all of my friends due to isolation. Weed convinced me that everyone actually hates me. That nobody loves me. Weed convinced me that they were the problem (which in some cases, they were) but I refused to do the self reflection. I have also completely isolated myself from my family. Weed has also ruined the relationship I have with my dog. It made me short tempered and irritated all the time. My dog and I are rebuilding our relationship.

4. MAJOR anxiety and depression. I struggled with major depression and anxiety (actually undiagnosed autism and ADHD) to the point where I was hospitalized six times during my childhood and adolescence . I was also dealing with severe physical abuse in my home. So when I got my hands on weed, it quieted everything. It eventually made everything worse to the point where I’d be so anxious that someone was in my house trying to harm me.

5. Sort of tying into point #2- I stopped working out consistently. That scholarship I mentioned was for basketball. Once I stopped playing, I went to the gym consistently. Then I got heavy into weed and completely stopped working out. I ate like shit as well. I’m tall asf so I don’t “look unhealthy” but babyyyyyy, do I feel it. I’ve been consistent in the gym this past year but I now realize weed played a huge role in me pausing the exercise routine.

Lmk if yall enjoyed this post. I can make one about things I enjoy now that I’m sober :)