I'm so tired constantly struggling with my words

I've always had trouble putting my words and it's so frustrating having my family laugh when I misspeak.

I'm trying so hard to be understood and I'm trying so hard to put my thoughts into words, but sometimes my brain replaces the word I mean to say with a different word and then everyone laughs at me and I feel like I'm an idiot.

Everyone misspeaks sometimes, but I do it more often than the others in my house and then I get laughed at more because my mistakes are more obvious and I don't catch onto it as easily. When my stepbrothers make these kinds of verbal mistakes nobody notices but when I do, everyone is mean.

I'm trying so hard but it constantly feels like everyone in my family is making fun of me for mistakes that aren't that big of a deal.