Something weird happened when I was a kid and I can't get it out of my head.

When I was probably 12 or 13, I was asleep in my bed. Nothing weird happened, and I woke up at around 10 am I think. When I woke up, I felt something weird down there. I feel nauseous even typing this because of the implications of it, and the fact that I might just be imagining this and overthinking it, in which case... Wtf brain...

Anyway, I woke up, and things just felt strange. I'm not sure how to word this, so I'll just say it, I felt myself down there and it wasn't erect, but was wet. Not "wet dream" wet, but like.. rinsed under a sink wet if that makes sense.

I didn't think much of it, and went about my day, and it never happened again. The more time went on, the more I felt disturbed by what happened. Why were my genitals wet? I didn't have a wet dream, didn't pee myself or anything, and I was just sleeping normally. Every time I think about it, I come to the same conclusion. One of my 2 brothers or my dad performed fellatio on me. That's not possible though. I would've woken up, someone would have been acting weird the following day, someone would've tried to buy silence, maybe it wouldve happened again, but none of those were the case. It just happened once, and everything was normal. Nothing leads me to believe my hypothesis is based in reality. This makes me think I just have some fucked up brain and think the worst of people, which makes me feel horrible and nauseous.

Now, I really hope this doesn't break any rules, I'm just trying to process this and I'm sorry if it's TMI. I'm 25 now. Whenever my partner goes down on me, I'm always left with such a disturbing thought, being that my genitals feel very similar after the fact to how they did that morning. I just feel gross. I'm going to bed.

There's no proof of anything, and nothing can be done now. I'm just left to stew on these thoughts.

TLDR: Woke up when I was 12 or 13 to my genitals being wet, can't stop thinking about it and feeling disturbed.