Want To Be Selfish Muslim

I am b.tech 1st year student at NIT ...... Tommorow is my end semester exam, but today I went across my account of Muslim involved with Non-Muslims And 95 % were muslim girls and mostly were with hindu ,they met with guy in college.first time muslim parents open to send their daughters in college, isn't the parents got betrayed.I also have my sisters studying outside,even though they have good islamic knowledge now I am sad because it was me who convinced my parents to send them to study but I am feeling guilty now, because in most post girls were religious and still eloped or did fight with parents. I am also studying with hindu , also I also got crushed on Hindu girls but I control my crush on other (i just don't see the girl I have crush and fully ignore the other girls) because as per Qur'an it is never justified and also see the children of Muslim man Hindu gurl couples like srk , their children are not muslim,they know nothing about islam and aqidah so even if man is muslim his children will not be muslim so how can a true muslim put himself in condition where he clearly know their children will be going to hell (most probably). So if with man this is problem then how a muslim girls ( believing one)can marry and be happy knowing about their future children fate , since most probably their children will be either atheist or hindu. And despite knowing marrying non muslim (except christian,jew for men i think it only for man because since wife is christian or jew it will easy for children to adopt in Islam,but for muslim girl's children it will not be easy since children faith is heavily influenced by father's faith) will be always consider zina ,so how someone having believe in islam can do this. And some people were saying Hinduism is monotheist, I think Qur'an have clearly mentioned people of book which is only for male(from only those 3 other book on jesus, moses, david) so whether Hinduism is monotheist or not it doesn't matter. And if someone is doing this it's just means he/she is not muslim by heart because I have experience if you have strong belief in Islam you can easily overcome this with namaz ,and dua and by ignoring. And I know to be faithful it is like necessary to be in circles of muslims so for those girls who are with non muslim first their imaan is week second they are going in circle of Non-Muslims (i think it is one of the reason also girls are not allowed to marry outside islam) how can they keep their faith alive,I have studied about many famous female and find that in later years she was muslim by name only. So I have advise for those who are currently in these conditions to reconsider all these factors and to those who still want to marry,plz why not you leave islam right now ,it will be easy then for you in life And one more thing many hindu, will show you as secular, atheist but deep down most of them are extremely hateful towards islam And I have gone through many reddit post, x post, instagram id, telegram id most of them what they talk is trap muslim girls have sex and leave her to make fun of islam and it really hurts because here we are fighting for existence of Muslim in india but our sisters are openly making us a object for their fun. I am now really disappointed,and also sacred about my sisters because if she will do anything like this i will be first to be blamed by my family. And In most case when these girls get bertyal from their Hindu partner they turn to muslim, I ask you you turn to us ,go anywhere but don't come to us since you have made you fight for existence difficult And these girls having in relationship with hindu most turn for religious men , I ask why ,why you don't marry that hindu guy or other muslim guy like you ,why you want to destroyed life simple religious muslim guy like me . Now I scared to get married. Now I hate myself because I see every muslim girl studying outside as same because I have seen it in JMI Delhi Now I think it's better to get married to a girl who were like literally slur but have converted to islam and she is now islamic (virginity doesn't matter but imaan matter) and I can she she will have more strong iman than these born muslim

I want to ignore all these but I don't know if I can or not because we all know the Judaism story in Quran that 1/3 who disobeyed were changed into animals 1/3 who who obeyed but didn't stopped those who disobeyed were also punished. And other Qur'an story of how when punishment came for a tribe (where one was on deen rest were disobeyed Allah)then first who was on deen was punished for not guiding others

Guide me plz

And many girls got brainwashed about women's rights like triple Talaq and halala etc in islam by these Hindu, So girls why not themselves reasearch on it

1. Prophet Muhammad said in his last sermon that he have completed the seen on us and in his time saying 3 talaq once was consider one so one of their brainwashing topic end here
2. Halala is haram if you divorced by giving 3 talaq (not for 1 , not for 2) so you you can't marry you husband again. But after divorce you married another person and either he died or divorced you (it must be taking place naturally, otherwise it is one of greatest sin and both should be punished) then you can marry previous husband , so second brainwashing topic is also dismissed

So why girls don't do deep in these topics as per Qur'an and easily get brainwashed.

Due all these I am always in fear for my sister and being not able to focus on my study.

How I can overcome this. I just want to think about myself because I will prefer I go to Jannah if condition is all these will go to hell over all these go to Jannah condition i will go to hell. I just want to be selfish muslim now. How can I do this . i just don't want to care these muslim girl/boy but I am unable to do . Guide me Why i destroy my bright future for those who don't Care about themselves (I am hating my heart for having sympathy for then. How can I make make heart to only have sympathy for myself)