Right Person, Wrong Distance

This is going to be a long post, so if you’re going to comment, please read the whole thing to understand.

I know you’re probably tired of seeing me talk about this over and over, but I need to vent, so I’m writing it anyway.

There are things in life that hit so damn hard you feel it physically, even when nothing dramatic is happening. Loving the right person but losing them because of distance is one of those hits.

She already had a long distance relationship for years and gave everything she had, but the other person was just playing with her feelings. Even loving me, she ended things because of a 3 hour distance. And the worst part is that we’re both 18, without cars, without resources… everything feels impossible.

The worst part is that I would wait as long as it took just to be with her. But she explained that, having stayed in that other relationship for so many years without anything happening, she can’t wait months anymore, even though she loves me.

It’s not normal missing. It’s that heavy, exhausting kind of pain that stays on your chest the whole day. You wake up with it, you go to sleep with it, and your mind keeps repeating: “Why the hell did it have to be like this?” And there’s no answer. Just silence and that constant ache.

The connection is still there. The feelings never faded. The desire to make it work is still alive. But distance ruins what should’ve been simple. It turns something real into something basically impossible. And it hurts like hell because deep down you know it could have worked if life hadn’t put miles in the middle.

It’s frustrating, draining, unfair.

It feels like losing someone who’s still alive in your world.

Like having someone emotionally close but physically unreachable.

And it breaks you in a way nothing else does.

I’ve even sent her two bouquets since the breakup. Call me emotional, but that’s exactly how I feel.

In the end, I honestly don’t know what hurts more: pretending I’m moving on or admitting I’m still in love with someone who’s right for me but wrong in every practical way.