I.. Dont know what to do

Well. Havent really thought about doing this and well. Everyone i know is either busy or asleep. So might as well give this a try.. Im in a downward spiral. For context, I recently got out of Jobcorps in the late summer of 2024. Being there really broke me down and made me hope for a better future when I left.. and now that im gone, ive only found myself to be hating every second of it. Payments are getting more expensive, no one would hire me for welding which is what i went to Jobcorps for, everyone either just doesnt give a damn about one another and now, I despise going to sleep because I know im gonna dream about being with my crush, an anime character I like or just living a better life.. This has happened for the past.. I dont know 2 weeks? The dreams I mean. I just.. dont know how much more I can take. Every day Im constantly reminded on how worthless I pretty much am to everyone around, and no one will even approach me anymore unless its for something they want or need... So yeah. Im at my wits end with everything and really considering just punching out. Not because im too weak or whatever my great grandad said, but because im tired of it. Of being used.