Don’t know what to do.

I’ve been in a rut for the past 6 months. I have all these goals but can’t accomplish a single one. I want to practice SR, eat healthy, fast, and just overall be more productive but I just CAN’T. It’s like I have this mental block. Like an involuntary self sabotage mechanism. Funny thing is that I’m completely aware of me doing what I say I wouldn’t do EVERY TIME I DO IT. I just have this “fuck it, idc” attitude when I start wanting to ease back into the old habits again. PMO, junk food, no exercise, video games, tv series, etc. I know exactly what i need to do but just haven’t figured out how to get over this block in my head. I really want to do SR but as soon as I get horny that goal goes out the window. This is the case with all my goals. As soon as it gets hard I quit. What do I do about this?

“For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” Roman’s 7: 15

Anyways my point for posting this is because I know many of you have been through the same thing and come out on the other side. I need a blueprint or something. I can’t keep going on like this. Truly miserable at this point in my life. I pride myself on my intelligence but am I really intelligent if I can’t even do what I know I should? Pathetic really. Shameful.