are you holding your laugh when looking at people in the eyes when they are talking to you?

i always had trouble looking to people in the eyes when i’m talking with them but i’m trying to change that and damn i think people think there’s something wrong with me or something cause when they are talking to me no matter if it’s a man or a woman im holding my laugh like crazy no matter the situation and i think they are noticing a little smile, this doesn’t happen when im medicated though.